Its not everyday that someone comes into your life and changes every aspect of it, from the way you sleep and eat to how you interact with your family and friends. But this, as I now understand, is the life of a father.. And sometimes, just sometimes life can throw you an opportunity that can seriously reignite those moments that you can imagine a safe and secure future.

I’ve had moments of bleak realization that tempered with my every thought of how to safe guard a life for my daughter Daisy-Ella. The worry of how she’ll grow up; will she be safe, can I give her what she needs and wants, will she be happy. It dawns on you as a new parent that life is a lot more complicated and excited than you first thought. Living a life of ‘day to day’, nights out with the lads , parties which last till the break of dawn, and I had no worries, no fears of what may be or what my actions may bring. Innocent and naive as to what is around the corner. I do look back at the old me and think to myself “you have no idea
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But this is what has happened to me. I’ve been given a chance to create a life that not only secures my family and its well being but gives me a chance to take a step back and regroup.

And what is this star in the sky that I’m talking about? A free dwelling in which my family can live courtesy of my In-Laws. Now don’t get me wrong its an amazing opportunity and really appreciate it but I am holding my cards close to my chest as I’m wary. In the end though, we now have the chance to finally rid the grip of the evil rental giant that has encroached its horde onto Brighton and move somewhere free (er) and more becoming of a new family. we now don’t worry about moments where our thoughts wonder to ‘can we afford this months rent‘ or ‘will this always be it‘, for I, myself and we, as a family have a chance to save up for a mortgage for a place to call our own.

These past few weeks I’ve taken my time to venture into the unknown that is ‘country life‘, its slower than I expected and a lot friendlier also. Every man and women you walk by dips their head with a “good morning” or “afternoon“. I see smiles from every soul that resides in this allusive place. Only a few escapes I can find around me but happy I can still hear the sea waves crashing by the shore. Ticking my list off as a go It can’t falter, yet there’s an urge for he city life pounding my chest. To say I’ve had a few hiccups here is an understatement, lack of sleep from Daisy-Ella and lack of sleep from the darkness and quietness that protrudes my bedroom window at night. Its quiet.

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Daisy-Ella has grown to be my life. To not include her whole entire life into my small decisions can only hinder her development, so I’m still wary but I know this is right.

A new beginning and fresh start for my family is what we need to survive this day and age.

Some people say I’m mad, some say I may not cope with the changes. City life to country life are definitely worlds apart. Only time will tell if I have made the right choice and only I can judge me.

Goodbye city dad. This time I’m doing it as a small village dad.

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